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Saturday, February 15, 2014

Over Exposed and No Date to Blame It On

You know when you take a picture and the lighting is all off. You are either too white, too yellow, or too orange? I kind of feel that way today.

I noticed that I needed to let off some steam. 

I can't really do it here or at the Gazette, so I began another blog: Radio Active Dawn. I might even do a few podcasts with my strange sense of humor about the coming apocalypse. Now I feel like Buffy the Vampire Slayer remixed. 

I was in bed with a headache most of the morning. I've had too much pinned up energy and angst. I really freaked myself out with the geoengineering information. I hate when that happens.

With my broken central nervous system it is easy to do. I have to remember to remain calm and bring people the news. I am human and I tend to get absorbed by the bad news. I've got to remember that I am doing positive and good in the world by reporting on this information and not allowing it to remain hidden where nefarious deeds are more easily accomplished. 

Now, if I could only send the elite the bill for my emotional turmoil. It is after all their fault the world is going to hell. Psychos. Here my family thought I was one. hahaha! 

Nope. A critical medical condition that makes you weak and disoriented isn't a psychotic break. Using everyone in the world as a lab rat while you systematically destroy the world is psychotic. 

I'm so glad I can tell the difference. 

Have a great weekend and be sure to visit my other links! 

Lazy Saturdays and Kitty Cat Dreams

The kittens as well as Ivanka and Ray have decided that if I am not up after my second alarm then it's time to bomb me out of bed.

We'll see about that.

The kittens and Ivanka began playing with one of my vitamin c packet wrappers underneath my bed. There's mostly cement there so the noise echoes. Ray was somewhere else at the time. I told them to get out. The noise would stop. Two minutes later, the playing began again. So this time armed with a flashlight and squirt bottle... hehehe!

Revenge was mine!

I had a headache from all the aerial spraying of toxic heavy metals and I just wanted to sleep it off. Too much to ask apparently as the kitties I came to realize a few hours later were almost out of hard food in their play room. 

Oh poor babies! They're going to starve to death... NOT! 

Right now as I type, my Lynx Colorpoint Shorthair is all stretched out on the desk by the keyboard. His kitty cat dream was fulfilled. I was out of bed and did my human duty to make them happy kitties.

One day... one day, the tables will be turned. I'm still waiting for that day to happen. When the kitties will have to bring me breakfast in bed. Although seeing how scant the bug population is in my house, I can say with some certainty that I will not be grossed out of bed any time soon.

Well, my Bombay likes to bring me her toy. Freshly soaked in her water bowl, which is gross by the way, for me to throw to her. 

I guess the skies are clear enough, although not blue enough, for me to venture outside for a few minutes. I hope the air is clean enough of most chemical particulates so I won't get a sinus headache again every time I return from the outside. It's getting outrageous. I guess it's time Americans started complaining about this toxic fallout. 

Be safe!

Friday, February 14, 2014

Not Another Sick Day with Sick Skies

I'm home. I'm in and out of bed. I am sore.

I did way too much yesterday, but hey, the house looks pretty good! I don't. 

That's okay with all the chemical lines in the skies and smelly clouds, I don't belong outside or doing any type of exercise. I'm better off taking it easy today. Tomorrow, we'll see. 

Being so sick that it has disabled me for life makes me fluent in many areas of study: medicine, chemistry, naturopathy, homeopathy, and environmentalism. Obviously, I am not licensed because I am unable to go to school, but I know enough to understand what is happening to me and in the world around me. 

That, and I'm just smart... on the days I can be. ;) 

So when I say I am concerned about something, it's usually more than that. I am really scared and I'm not sure what I can do about it. If I run around screaming the sky is falling, the sky is falling... well, no one is going to listen to me, are they?

I know some people have already rolled their eyes about my lines in the sky topic, which are toxic chemicals eating away at our ozone and releasing methane gas from the Antarctic ice sheets creating a real life doomsday scenario.

But you can't say anything or you are a crazy person. 

I am part science and part art. I understand well enough that Earth is in trouble and no one seems to be doing anything about it but making the problem worse. Spraying chemicals in the atmosphere is making whatever the government is afraid of much, much worse.

This direct assault on the world impacts me. Since Phoenix has been under a non-stop spraying directive for the past 6 to 8 weeks, I haven't been breathing too well. I'm not alone in this reaction. Normal people in all of the western world are dying of heart failure, respiratory diseases, immune reactions, and liver/renal failure. So, it's just not me.

What to do? Stand up. When you see the lines in the sky, say something, to anyone. I do. I ask what the hell that's for and what I found out when I looked it up on the internet, which is all true. It's not safe anywhere on the planet because somewhere in our government someone though this spraying was a good idea. 

Not by a long shot.

I may not have all these degrees, but I have common sense. Messing with Mother Earth is not smart, and it's not any government's right. 

So if you get a chance to read some of my articles on the VDP Gazette, make sure you watch the lecture by Dane Wigington. Then you will understand why I am so concerned... i.e., frightened as hell.

Because if the government is trying everything to lock us down, create a police state, and build bunkers and underground shelters for themselves... it would be because they know it's coming down, it's their fault, and we're going to start after the culprits.

So have a great Valentine's Day and remember knowledge is power and positivity. You can't be an awesome person without the facts.

Have a great and wonderful day.

Thursday, February 13, 2014

Dead Man Slumming

I did it this time...I feel like I broke my back.

Most of the housework got done today. I swept, vacuumed, took garbage and recycling out. I cleaned the cat litter room, the master bath. Now my lower back hurts.

I have a curve on the lower region of my spine. If I do too much, it hurts. If I sit too long, it hurts. If I lay on my back to sleep, it hurts. If I order pizza... you get the idea. My lower back suckaroonis! 

I hope with the house out of the way that I can actually get to revamping my site a bit. Updates are needed. The whole thing needs a spit shine, but since my modem took a dump and my subsequent poisoning from said modem, now I think I will have a chance to get caught up technologically for once. 

I have cd's and dvd's to burn for back up's sake. I need to print one of my stories out. I need to get my writing projects all lined up. I have some books to turn out. Some are half way done; I just have to finish up and edit. Things I am good at doing. 

I am good at setting goals and tasks and accomplishing them. 

Then I'm set for publication. Some I will produce myself and others I might take a chance out in the real world. Why not? It's not like I'm going anywhere...

Stay safe and have fun!

Time to Clean House, Pt 44

It seems like every day I want to clean my house.

I like a nice, neat house, but I have kids. Right now, those kids are running through the house chasing each other and jumping onto the furniture.

Good thing, my kids are cats.

Luckily, it's going to be warm this week until the beginning of next. The only complaint I have is the lines in the sky. Damn, geoengineering chemicals! Ruins my fun every single time.

I have to keep my house closed and the air cleaners on. When those trails get to the lower atmosphere, I start having respiratory and other problems.

I'm not the only person in Arizona upset by these chemical lines. I just did a story for the Gazette about a man in Mohave County: Geoengineeing: One Arizonan's Battle Against Being Poisoned.

I couldn't make this shit up if I wanted to. 

So I have got to get everything done so it can go out into the recycling and trash bins for pick up tomorrow morning.

Then hide again, I must, until someone stops the planes from poisoning all of us.

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

I Did It To Myself

So I got a new modem from my cable/internet company. 

I had the windows open. It was a beautiful day. As soon as the air turned cool, I shut the house up and with it the fumes from the new modem.

I wondered why I couldn't breathe, my stomach swelled, my nasal passages hurt, and my hands broke out, cracked and bled. 

When I went into the front part of the house, I smelled that damn modem's "new car" smell. I immediately unplugged the sucker. Still even with two air cleaners, I could not breathe until at least 3am.

The night air is hard on me so I tried airing out the house, but pollen is here and it just made my breathing that much worse. 

The next day I went into my cable stash and good thing I have lots of cables because I used my extensions to put my modem outside the nearest window. I have it on a tv tray stand so the cats cannot do horrible things to it but at least the toxic odor is outside. 

See, I did it to myself.

Still everyone even if they are not sick like me should take note. Toxins and poisons can be in the most innocuous of items. Shampoos, conditioners, soaps, laundry products, air fresheners, perfumes, colognes, personal care products do nothing but add toxins to an already extreme body burden. 

One product may not have a lot of toxins and you shrug off what I'm telling you, but if you were to add up all your products together, you would understand that toxins are accumulative. 

I now use only organic or natural products including my make up. Poisoning yourself is no longer en vogue. Health is.

Oh and store bought cosmetics age the skin, another great reason to go healthy. Organic and natural products rejuvenate the skin. In the long run, you'll end up looking younger. 

Isn't it time you switched over to the winning team?

Have a great and wonderful day!

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

The Day WE Fight Back

Take part

The SOPA and PIPA protests were successful because we all took part, as a community. As Aaron Swartz put it, everybody "made themselves the hero of their own story." We can set a date, but we need all of you, the users of the Internet, to make it a movement.

What we can do

Congress is considering two major bills.
We need to tell Congress to pass the USA Freedom Act and amend it to make it even stronger.

Monday, February 10, 2014

The Trouble with Modems

I was having a difficult time watching youtube videos or doing anything online. 

So today the technician from the internet/cable company came out and swapped out the old modem for a new one. Now, the interruptions have ceased. Life is now good again.

I'm Russian-Irish and my patience was being tested every time I got online. I have learned over the years to try to be patient, but there are times that's just not possible. A funky internet connection over the course of several weeks is one of those times. 

I just don't cuss and make a scene, albeit all by myself, I cuss in several different languages. I suspect some of those cuss words are made up. Whatever... as long as I feel better in the end, right? 

It's fun and funny to work with the public. People like technicians ask me questions I cannot really answer like: how long have you had this modem? when did your problems start? what did you notice first? 

All trick questions. 

I have to explain in a cheerful way how I have inflammation induced brain injury. By the second question, I then have to say how time works differently for me. I can estimate but that doesn't make anything I say any truer. Just save us both a lot of trouble and check your records! hahaha!

I remember a time when I was incredibly precise. Now, not so much. When I remember something, it's like a cause for a celebration.... literally. 

Still it's nice to have a good connection to the big bad world again. 

At least the modem didn't cost me anything. That's a relief. I don't have funds to shell out hundreds here or there. 

Since I knew someone was coming over today, I quickly cleaned up the front rooms. That's good since I had a chronic fatigue episode and was in bed all weekend sleeping something off and it wasn't drugs or alcohol, damnit! I never did them anyway. 

My shoulders hurt something awful. It's like having a painless migraine yet all the pain is in my shoulders, which some goes down my arms while I try to type and use the vacuum. It's obscene.

And, so is my life. 

So that's the trouble with modems.... and chronic fatigue, brain injury, inflammation, and bad memory.

I hope you had a fun day too.

Sunday, February 9, 2014

Sleepy Sunday Afternoons in Bed

I've been asleep for most of the day.

Days like this one are more frequent than I like to admit. I took a 2 1/2 hour nap this afternoon and I still feel miserably tired. 

It was a beautiful day and I missed it completely.

Chronic fatigue set off by chronic illness is never that much fun. I've been in the middle of watching a program online and woke up after it started to repeat itself. That is very annoying. 

I do love the fact that I will fall asleep with the keyboard on the pillow on my stomach, especially as I lay here to type, and the cats will look at me like: oh, yeah, she's gone all right after I realize I fell asleep again. When I do wake up, I have no idea where I was going with a point and have to scratch what I had already written. 

Today, I did not force myself to stay up. I just curled up and went to sleep. I'll probably fall back asleep around 11pm. I rather sleep whatever it is going on inside of me than to trigger a migraine.

My migraines are legendary. These cluster headaches are so bad my doctor put me through a CT scan believing I had a tumor or something worse. The scan came back normal.

That's because my migraines are triggered by toxins and poisons inside and outside of me. Oh, joy. That means one will come on just because and not for any reason I can avoid usually. 

So I have to be in a room with no lights, no sound, and piled with ice packs. Good thing my refrigerator makes its own ice. I bought it on purpose for that reason. Since I cannot take any pain medications because of my liver and immune conditions, I suffer for days a week sometimes. 

If I am tired and unable to motivate, oh well... I will get to the house later. Nothing is an emergency. I have everything under control. I don't want a migraine to come on so rest it is. 

I have a roast made, mashed potatoes in the refrigerator also, so I'm good.

I buy whole chickens, roasts for this expressed reason: dinner for three days and then the leftovers are frozen for another night I do not want to cook and I keep my food rotated. Good plan. Frozen vegetables are always a good idea. Just steam and serve. Mashed potatoes in a packet are awesome. Brown rice ready for cooking also very good. 

Well it's time for me to make my CSM, take it in 45 minutes then sleep for another two hours before getting up for dinner, taking my supplements, then going back to bed. I better be more active tomorrow. I have things I want to do. 

Phoenix is going to be in the mid 80's this week and I want to bask in the sun. Warm these tired and cold bones. Feel the healing energy of the universe course through me. 

Maybe that will turn this fatigue around, at least for an hour a day. That's all I ask. I need an hour to be mobile.

So have a great night!