Up and down. High and low. Welcome to the wonderful world of the detox process.
I began a new vitamin, mineral, and amino acid powder a while back. I went on a high where I felt alive and well. Now I'm in the detox stage.
Energy has given way to lethargy. Happiness has faded into depression. And bad dreams and thoughts have worsened.
I am hoping I get over the tough road soon.
I did get some B complex vitamins ordered. I only hope they help with my energy level. If I have to be fatigued, then let it be most of the day, not all of it. I have stuff to do and I would like to have my chores done instead of thinking about doing them.
Depression and chronic fatigue together are a mighty assault on my will.
I do have a formidable will too. After the repeated abuse and poisonings, I wouldn't be hear if there wasn't a reason. If I wasn't so damn onry. If I didn't have a will.
Nothing in life has ever come easy to me. I have worked very hard to get everything I have. Sometimes I wish I could have a respite from the madness of the world, but that just leads to complacency.
If I am anything, it surely is not complacent.
I am always searching, researching what life is all about. What the universe really is. Why I am here?
Everyone has these questions, but most others are satisfied with religious systems that are there to confine their souls to man made dogma, not to inspire imagination or creativity.
I want to be inspired. I want to be free. I want to soar!
Isn't there something you want to do?
Maybe it's time to break the chains of society,find what inspires you, and ride a roller coaster of your own making with your destiny in mind. Trying is not failing, failing to try is.
Have a great ride!