Thursday, January 2, 2014

The Sweetest Things in Life Aren't Always Sugar Filled

I went to the doctor's today. Just a routine check up. Get weighed, have my lungs heard, blood pressure taken, and my one lowly prescription refilled.

Ah, the joys of chronic illness! 

I love it especially when my body decides to wake me up at 4am to catch the 730am ADA bus ride. My Central Nervous System (CNS) is forever damaged thanks to pesticides and black mold. Even on the bus my CNS likes to have a spaz. A little bump in the road or a little too much G-force and cue the panic attacks.

Really? My CNS needs a new hobby. This one is tiresome! 

Good thing I can anticipate what my body likes to do and I get out my Vitamin C packets. I drink a few of those tangerine flavored yummies and shazam! All better! 

When I returned home, I was very tired. So as I was eating brunch, a friend called. We gabbed until I could not keep awake any further. I went into my room and fell asleep.

Almost 5 hours later... I realized the cats had not been fed!  The sun was down but they were still resting on my couches, told you they like my living room furniture! So I fed them, took some meds, watched some tv, ate dinner, and now before I turn off reality one last time today, I have to enter a post on my blog.

It's good exercise for my brain. I still have my issues like: typing the wrong words, misspelling words, writing fragmented sentences, and not quite using the shift key with a corresponding letter to make capitals adequately so I have to redo the letter over and over again until I get the intended capitalization.

Frustrating really when I remember a time that my brain-hand-eye coordination did not have so many idiosyncrasies.

In the last year, I have managed to re-obtain some of my better vocabulary words. So if you see $50 words, I am not being a bore. I am applying what I thought I had lost for so many years. 

Use it or lose it!

And I have got to lose some weight. I am not huge, but I am not where I want to be. I guess I really am going to have to cut out more sweets... damnit! I love chocolate. If I do not have chocolate, I am a scary, irritable person. 

So removing the carbs it is! hahaha!!! I like a paleo/atkins diet anyway so getting back to it should be no problem if I can still squeeze some treats here and there into the mix. I learned long ago that you cannot deprive yourself, but you cannot be a glutton either!

Okay, I am done for real this time. Stick a fork in me! Off to bed and dreams of a better future. One where I don't have to be so structured and wary. One in which I am once again free to roam wherever my spirited heart shall take me.

Have a gloriously good night!